Hi blog-walkers, constant readers, and dearest friends :).

Sorry for not being consistent in blogging. I need to stuck my head into school books. yes, school books, my friends, you read me right.

I got this thing called mid year exams.
Well, just like other exams, it's super stressful. super annoying. super hard. super make-you-not-able-to-go-out.

Sigh. thank GOD it's going to end soon, and then I'll be able to enjoy my life again!

I'll keep you guys updated, okay.


Randoms:

Hi, fellas! Well, you're probably wondering what the hell does the title mean. Kinda lame, I know, but those five things are the five main things I do every single day. Yes, only those things, no more.

Err, plus browsing, perhaps, but I just got my laptop, and I don't think browsing is gonna be a regular thing for me, thanks to those damn schoolwork(s).


So what do you all think? I cant say that my life is AWE-some, neither I can say that my life super duper sucks. (saying that it sucks would just make it sucks deeper, trust me.)


That's what I'm trying to do right now, convincing myself that my life is good - well at least it MUST be good so that it's worth to be lived, and I'm currently trying to encourage myself to be a tough girl, a very patient, thoughtful, and cheerful one, instead of being moody and stressed whenever I got super exhausted due to (AGAIN), those damn schoolwork(s).


However, my dear fellows, so far it has been MEGA difficult. yes, my friend, MEGA. If I can exaggerate more, it's ULTRA DIFFICULT. (I wonder which is bigger, mega or ultra?).
I've been biting my lips every time my mood drops and I'd like to shout to some annoying people, and it freaks me out sometimes.

Moreover, I also need to consider my friends' moods. I live a similar life here with them, so sometimes, when I got bad mood, they have bad mood, too. Well, when two or more people with super bad mood gather together, you can see some shits flying around.


For the past months, I've been such a "sekia" (meaning, a little child; childish person) by crying my mood out, texting my mum, saying that I want to go home, I'm sick of my life, and those sorts of things. I had been very selfish too, by asking both my mum and dad to come here, and leave my two sisters back home.

But then I realise that I can't do that forever.


I need to grow up.


At least, I need to act like a sixteen year old girl who has decided to accept this thing, and live in singapore.
I cant regret everything I have done.
I cant cry all night for those regrets, which would result in huge eyebags and stuck nose on the next day.
I cant blame my friends for what I got wrong.
I need to consider their mood.
I cant text my mum by capslock words and ask her to come here just because I got bad mood.


I need to live my life on my own. I cant depend on my mum and my dad forever, and neither I can depend on my friends.


The only one whom I should have leaned on is JESUS alone. Sheesh. Living alone makes you realise that you need to build up a stronger faith, you know.



Sigh. I need to try a bit more. good luck for me, I guess :).

okay sorry to disappoint you, but I'm writing in my mother tounge for this post.


SAYA KANGEN INDOOOOOOOOO.

Nggak pernah kebayang sebelumnya kalau gue bisa sekangen ini sama indo. keluarga, kamar tidur, rumahnya, makanannya, tempat-tempat ngecengnya, barang-barang murahnya, BALInya, temen-temen, sekolah, bahkan (percaya ato nggak) gue juga kangen upacara bendera sambil nyanyiin Indonesia Raya!

ternyata setiap hari harus berdiri diem dan pasang muka serius sambil dengerin temen-temen singaporean gue nyanyi "majulah singapura" dan nyebutin pledge mereka, aaargh timbul satu perasaan dimana gue pengen teriak, literally teriak, Pancasila, dan nyanyiin lagu Indonesia Raya! dan gue terus berpikir kalo bendera singapore yang merah-putih plus bulan sabit dan bintang itu adalah bendera INDONESIA, tapi bernoda putih bentuk bulan sabit dan bintang.

oke maafkan atas kelancangan gue, tapi itu hanya apa yang ada di pikiran gue, so no offense.


OH MY GOD, Indo itu sangat ngangenin! gue harus mengakui bahwa mata dan kuping gue selalu "jelalatan" nyari-nyari muka orang indo, dan suara orang yang ngomong bahasa indonesia. kalau ketemu, gue ga akan nyapa sih, tapi gue bakal cengar-cengir bahagia dan sumringah sepanjang hari itu.


Bahkan, gue ngebela-belain ke gereja Cathedral of Good Shepherd yang (lumayan) jauh dari hostel gue, dan gereja itu kondisinya nggak bisa dibilang bagus kaya gereja-gereja lainnya yang ada disini, tapi gue ketagihan dateng misa disana simply because...


banyak banget orang indo disana. dari turis, sampe sesama scholars yang katolik, mereka semua gereja disana. dan orang indo itu gampang banget dikenalin lewat suaranya yang (ehem) agak TOA-- alias keras, maka itu gampang lah gue sadar kalau orang yang duduk di depan gue itu orang indo, atau yg dibelakang gue , yg lagi grasak-grusuk itu pasti orang indo. Tapi gue nggak kesel atau pun bete sama sekali kok. justru kebalikannya, I feel just like home.


and until now, I'm craving for anything "Indonesian". jadi kalo ada dari kalian yang ada usul-saran tempat yang "Indo banget" di singapore, please please kasih tau gue okaayyy.

Cheers! Salam INDO! ;D

Yes, we can help.
That's only Jakarta. As y'all know, we need a lot MORE than that.


So please, please, please. Let the earth rest for a peaceful one hour, by switching off your lamps.

[it's 16th FEBRUARY 2010, 2:06 PM]

Hi, there! again, millions of sorries from me, for being such an unproductive blogger. and what makes me even more unproductive is that my posts are ordinary. so sorry, I'm still in process of learning.


So as you know, I'm now living my life in Singapore. It's quite different and contrast with my life back in my hometown, lovely Indonesia. Perhaps you're wondering whether it is a good life, for a smart scholar like me. However, I must say that you get it wrong.


Firstly, I'm not that smart. Well, maybe I'm smart, but there are still people who are more ingenious, and far smarter than me. In fact, I'm a quite lazy student here, compared with my dear friends. Yes, homework sucks for me, just like it does for you guys.


Secondly, my life here is just as ordinary as yours. It is even more tiring. I need to wake up early, get ready, and walk my way to school. No cars, no taxis. I take bus, but most of the journey is on foot. So, bus is not counted. Next, PE lesson. Well, I'm never good at this subject. I can survive the joggings, the sports, and the push-ups, sit-ups, jumping-jacks, but still, I would prefer not doing PE.


The life at hostel is good, though. The food's nice, the aunties are kind and caring, the friends are supportive and fun. but there are chores you have to do yourself, and they are extremely tiring. The positive thing is that after doing those chore, you appreciate your "mbak" even more. you miss them, you wish they were here helping you doing those chores.


The best thing about living here is the weekends and the holidays. You can explore singapore, go to any place you like. The transport is easy, and the safety's good for traveling alone. You can shop till you drop, you can hang out in the cafes, you can go to the zoo (it's so COOL!), have a city tour, anything! You just need to remember the curfew at your hostel ;)



Ehem, I think this is enough for now. And for you guys who wants to go here for your study, I'm not discouraging you to come. I'm telling you what to prepare, what you'll face here. You'll be more independent, trust me. You'll appreciate life even more, believe me.


So please, do go. Do try the test. Do accept the scholarship. Do come to singapore. Don't make this post as a thing that discourages you.


OKAY? :D


P.S.: the local friends are very FRIENDLY! they're really welcoming. You'll definitely enjoy the class! :)

THOUSANDS OF SORRY,BLOGGERS. I should have done my kaleidoscope project, but I slacked and it's failed. so very very sorry :(.


I feel ashamed when I did some blogwalks to my friends' blogs. they made some awesome postings about past memories in last year. I feel more ashamed when I saw my not-finished-and-not-complete-either draft. I have now lost my mood. SORRRYYYY :(:(:(.

by the way, this is my last year's kaleidoscope link

well, let's get to the topic. it's a new year, so HAPPY NEW YEAR, lovely bloggers! I wish y'all the happiest new year, and may your NY resolutions be accomplished :)

by the way, school starts already. it feels really really weird, wearing your uniform, getting up early, carrying heavy backpack on your back after SIX MONTHS being "SCHOOL-LESS".


The school lessons themselves are very exhausting. the teachers are simply immoral. they just give homework, homework, and more homework as if we got nothing to do after school finishes.


I was kinda sick in the last two week. I felt unwell, got stomachache, a little fever, and some headache. but thank GOD I recovered fast. there were some of my friends who got sick. it was like a relay race, when everybody takes turn to get sick. hahaha.


oops, I think I've babbled too much. see you later, bloggers. have a great 2010 :) and ooh, here are some pics!

YAHOOOOO dearest bloggers whatsup! It's been like years since the last time I blogged. my deepest sincerest apology. will you all forgive me? I know you will ;)



nope I won't write much for this posting,I'll just get through them by a pic. so here it is.

this flower is small. very tiny indeed, that you have to bend down, almost kneeling, to take its pic. well, actually, I don't even know what's its name.

this may be small, but it can grow on itself, relying only on rain, and sunshine. it shines, blooms, and grows among wild grass, leaves, and hard soils.


well, the same thing occurs to us.

we're small, while the world is huge. but you know what?


"Great things are done by a series of small things brought together." -- Vincent Van Gogh