Here goes the list.

Well, hello again.

Oh well, today's practically "Day 3", but whatever.

So I realized that I have been neglecting my blog. And I also realized that I haven't been exactly a happy girl, especially now that I'm back to the pressure point--the place where I'm far from home.

Hullo. Well, this blog should change its name, I guess. The journal's been dead for quite awhile. But WHOA chill people, I'm still alive. FULLY ALIVE, even. Yes, my life's good at the moment. I'm now having a two-week time at home, a place I've been craving for months. I just had a trip to Thailand last week, and I had fun.


I know what you guys are thinking. If I had fun and I'm now at home (which I said was the place I was craving to be at for months), why is this post entitled "SUCKS", then?

Lemme explain. I've been spending these two days with the most awesome bunch of people on earth; first day making cookies with three of my besties and the second day couch-potato-ing with the other three, it suddenly pops out in my mind, how I am…


Gonna miss them sooooo muchos for the next five friggin months.


oui, mon ami. FIVE. months. I'm not going home till november. that horrible, dreadful, nightmare-ish, disgusting fact makes me realise that I am gonna miss them, and


The epic fayl caramel popcorn,
the "percakapan berkualitas" (high-quality conversation. red) in the car,
the photobooth and self-timer sessions,
the cookie making,
the gossipsharings for the sake of catchingups,
the silly jokes and abnormally loud laughs,
the dvd-marathons aka “couch potato”,
hanging out for movies,
everything.


Damn you singapore for taking me away from them. Damn you, for making me unable to attend their schweet seventeen parties. Damn you, for stealing bits and bits of my time which is supposed to be spent with them.


I never regret going to singapore, but this sucks. It just sucks. I know I have another bunch of great friends there -oh yes I am aware of how truly blessed I am, having bunches and bunches of people who care about me, and they are like my second family, they make my life there far less miserable :).


BUT I WANT TO BE WITH THIS BUNCH OF AWESOME FRIENDS, TOO. dammit I know I’m being immature and childish. Yes I know I can’t get everything that I want, but this sucks. Totally. Arfgh.

HEY GUYS WHATSUP. Sorry for the lack of posts, I've been freaking busy these days, I can hardly breathe. So anywayyyyyy, this is my very first post since my birthday!

YES I still can't believe that I am seventeen. sounds old huh. And even though it's kinda late, I'm gonna tell you bits from that day!

People say that your seventeenth birthday is one of the best days of your life. I didn't believe them. I live in this floating hell, for goodness sake. I don't expect anything from my seventeenth bday. It's gonna suck, that was what I thought. All those dreams about having a grand party? I don't dare to even think about that. I learnt that too much expectations is never good.

However, it turned out to be a total contrast of what I thought it would be. My birthday, I mean. It was indeed one of the best day of my life. From the moment the clock ticked to 12 midnite, the magic began. My batchmates. Schlr2010. They're the bestttttttt. My roommate. Aww she was so cute! And even some of my seniors actually cared to come to the hostel. I am truly blessed to have them :'). And my best friends back from Indonesia. Their gift was so awesome I almost cried when I saw it.

I don't know how to thank you guys enough. Really.

In the end of the day, I couldn't stop smiling. Thanks, guys :').

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Hey! As some of you guys know, I am a huge fan of Jason Mraz. He's one amazing singer. And yeah, I'm listening to one of his songs as I am writing this post now! So I read this note of his in facebook, which is about the things he's grateful for in 10 years, which he listed down in 90 seconds. You can read it here. Inspired by this note, I make this post!

But it's not exactly the same, cus I'm not that old. I mean... 10 years of gratitude? 10 years ago I was this naive little girl who doesn't even know where Singapore is located, and who thinks that the only cool job in the world is doctor and astronaut. And now? I am living in that frikin place. So I decided to shorten the period of my gratitude to... ONE YEAR.


2010 was awesome. Awesomely tough. And I awesomely survived. Well, with scratches and bruises in some places, but still in one piece. And I won't be able to do it without the help of these things. Few minutes ago, I set my countdown timer application in my phone to 1 minutes 30 seconds, and type these things I'm grateful for in notepad.


So here are what I'm grateful for:

• BESTIES
• scholars!
• junior highschool buddies
• parents!
• sisssssss
• cousins and aunties and uncles
• grandma's lomie and ayam garing
• Om ady & Tante chen chen!
• Christmas
• Sekolah minggu
• CHURCHMATES
• ROSES!
• HOSCOMM
• seniors!
• XINHUI my partner!
• schoolmates
• Holidays
• Skype
• MSN
• internet!
• MOE for monthly salaries
• Mum for sending reflection everyday
• Laptop
• Ipod

This pict was taken wayyyyy in 2009. We may change physically, but we're still together! :).







Talking about having second family, I can't forget my first and most amazing family in the world. My very own parents and sisters, of course. They're awesome. Yes, now you get it where I got my awesome-ness, huh. ;);).

All those people. They create smile on my face, sometimes even when tears were on the very edge of my eyes, ready to flow down. Thanks for an awesome year of 2010 :).


Actually there are loads more that I am very grateful for, but 90 seconds is short, huh. Maybe I'll give myself another 90 seconds for another post someday!


And why don't you guys try for your very own list! Give yourself 90 seconds!



GO!

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Well I wanted to hibernate, but I think not this blog. I love this much more than my twitter account!


Well oops, you read me right, I'm hibernating my twitter account, till after Christmas! Why? Yes, good question. I just want to pull myself out of the crowd, back to the basic such as my blog, my tumblr account (yes I'm on tumblr! it's http://reginaekaputri.tumblr.com Err I know it's a bit late, but heeey I'm a newbie and proud of it!), MSN, and facebook (well, this one is actually crowder than twitter, but I'd like to catchup with some people there, and greet those having birthdays!)

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Anyways. Let's go back to the title!


YES BABY CHRISTMAS IS COMING! I always loooooove Christmas more than anything. Well, not more than my birthday. Emm. Okay.

So it's officially my second most favourite day of the year! Why? For this thing, Why is not a really good question. I think everyone who favours Christmas has the same reason as I do.

I like the Christmas decoration, the red and green combination, the Christmas trees, the Christmas songs, the Christmas eve mass at the church, the birth of Jesus, the food, the legends about Santa Claus's workshop and the elfs, creating wishlist, the presents, and yes, of course, the SPIRIT!


         Talking about decoration and trees, it's such a sad thing that I'm not putting a tree this year :(.
Last year I helped my aunt and uncle putting up and decorating a tree, and my batchmates and I, we put up our own tree in the hostel! And we had this small committee, making a stable, complete with all the statues of baby Jesus, Mary, Joseph, the angels, and the shepherds!


But this year, I'm not spending my november and december in singapore! Which is a totally great thing, of course, but sadly, in here, my Christmas tree is kinda... spoiled and broken down. I asked my mum about buying a new one, but she said there was no space that is big enough to store it. So my house is kinda plain for this year's Christmas, but that's okay! We still have the SPIRIT. YEAAAAH.





          Talking about... hmm lemme think. the songs! Aaah I love listening to Christmas songs.

And the good thing is that... they're everywhere this month! Yeay :D

They're so calming and they somehow increase your SPIRIT. My favourite song is Winter Wonderland, the Jason Mraz's version! And White Christmas, Michael Buble's version. Ooh and there's this song which I'm not so sure what the title is, the lyrics are like this "Long time ago, in Bethlehem, the holy Bible said // Mary's boy child, Jesus Christ // was born on Christmas day" Well, that's the lyrics, if I'm not mistaken. It's such a nice song, I had a cassette of Christmas songs, with that song in it. However, the thing is broken now. Oh well, I'm gonna look for that song later! ;).





           The next I'm gonna talk about is the mass. There's a particular mass I've never missed for years.

It's the Christmas Eve mass! At my church, at 9 PM.

It finished minutes before 12, that's why I love it. Because it's so Christmas-Eve-ish! Lol :) I started going to this mass when I was in 4th grade of primary. My neighbours and my parents, they were in charge of the Christmas masses that year. And four children, including me, were to perform as angels! Man, that was the most feminine Christmas of my life, I guess. I was to wear white dress, plus the white wings, and dance to the songs sung by the choir. I remember, it was "Slamat slamat datang, Yesus Tuhanku." We were performing at the 5PM mass, the first Christmas Eve mass. After performing, we got out, and had our dinner. At 9PM, I went back for the second mass. The mass was so solemn, and aah, the choirs are always the best. They always succeed to instill such a great SPIRIT. I decided that I'm gonna go again in the next years! Well, I do, till last year! :)



            The FOOOOOOOOD. OHHH My favourite. Let's talk about this year's plan. My mum plans to cook lamb chops and roasted chicken for the dinner! And she's thinking about baking brownies and some other kind of cakes (and I'm still trying to convince her to do ;)) Let's have some SPIRIT on the food, baby! :9.



            Ahh, the legend. I've always believed in Santa Claus, you know. just like other innocent, naive, kiddos. But at age of, errr, I can't remember, I figured out that it was my parents who have always been buying me presents.

That year, they were buying me and my sister bicylce. Their plan of convincing us that it was Santa Claus who bought it was almost successful. Unfortunately, they left the warranty card on the bike. My mum's name was on it. Sigh. Reality hurts, man.

However, I'm thankful indeed, that my parents instilled the Santa Claus image in my sisters and me when we were young. We were such terrified kiddos when Christmas was approaching. We would try our very best to behave well, so that we would not be kidnapped by Zwarte Pieten or Black Pete. There was a time when my sister was a crybaby, and one day when we went to a mall, we met this black pete guy. My mum talked to this guy, and bring this guy to my crying sis. After talking for a few minutes, my sis suddenly stopped crying, and after that, she was too scared to cry. Yes, my mum is -.-, but we were even more -.-


Yet heey! We grew in such a great Christmas SPIRIT, especially in the morning, when we ran all the way to the tree, and discovered that we had got a lot of presents. We would thank our parents and Santa Claus. Yes, we were naive, extremely naive, I know.



           Years after that, my sisters and I decided that, Hey, we should exchange presents! If Santa Claus does not exist, so why don't we, yes, we, become Santa Claus ourselves! So yeah, we have this habit of writing our wishlists, and exchanging it with each other. Before writing them down, we consider the budget. Then each of us will look through the list, and choose one thing that we would like to buy. Then we wrap them, hide them, and give them in the Christmas morning! It's always interesting, and we're always as excited as little toddlers when we're writing down our wishlist, buying each other's presents, and (of course) opening the presents! Yeah baby the SPIRIT's on us! :)



Last but not least, the SPIRIT. Hmm, I don't think I need to talk about it again, as it's mentioned all throughout this post. Yes, you're right.

The CHRISTMAS SPIRIT is actually everywhere.
It's in you. In me. In all of us.

And it's better if we share it with everyone, isn't it? That, is why I'm sharing my experiences, my burning SPIRIT of Christmas, right now with you guys! Well, you can freely do what my family do, too! Cook some lamb chops, roasted chick, bake some cakes, exchange some presents, put up a Christmas tree and  guess what. Perhaps in the future, I'd like to tell my kiddos that Santa Claus exists! :).


HAPPY EARLY CHRISTMAS!

OMG FINALLY THE FAREWELL WAS OVER YESTERDAYYYYY.



I've been fighting and spending sleepless nights and struggling with my macbook and writing 78 messages for my 78 seniors and it was exam period, too. I was so scaaaaaared that they wouldnt enjoy the farewell, especially the JC2s, who have some "high expectations" and high "tendency" to "boo" us away.


well, I know that it wasn't perfect, but they enjoyed it. That's all we (the committees) want :).

Costumes on! :).


THE JC2s, plus anisa.

the JC2s TERRORISTS FREEDOM FIGHTERS! They're super creative! look at the suicide bombers costume! There are redoxons and freaking calculators! HAHAHAHA :D

the lovely senioressssss


my batchmatesssss + anisa! (she's such a superstar that night hahaha)

Rena with the terrorist :)





MY SISTAAAAA <3<3<3. Gonna miss youuuuuu :(.

here are the sec 4s.



OMG I'll surely miss them all! Even tho it's been only a year, I feel like having a second family here in CJCH. I seriously can't imagine how hostel life would be without such seniors like them.

And next year, I am the senior. That would feel super weird, huh.



Hiks. I'm speechless. All of you are the best seniors one could ever ask, bener deh.

Thank you for everything. Udah mau ngajarin gue disaat otak gue nge-lag, udah mau memotivasi gue supaya lebih kiasu dan jadi the ultimate mugger, udah mau menghibur gue disaat gue down atau stress atau sedih atau kangen rumah, udah mau bagi-bagi makanan ke gue, udah mau menggossip bersama gue, udah mau dengerin gue ngoceh sampe ngalor ngidul, udah mau curhat ke gue, dan masih banyak lagi.

I really appreciate everything that you guys have done to me, even by just smiling and saying hello when we met at the corridors or whatever. You guys are the funniest, friendliest, nicest, cutest, most caring, and sweetest seniors eveerrrrrrrr.



You've coloured my life. You make me feel normal. You make me feel at home :).

All the best for all of you, seniorsss. Remember that you still have a home here, in CJCH :''''').

Hi, this is me. I'm... exhausted. stressed. Yes, it's unavoidable. Everybody I know is kinda stressed here. Wanna know some reasons why? Here, let me introduce you the timetable of my days.


0545 - alarm rings
0600 - shower time
0610 - a short nap
0630 - wakey wakey.
0645 - breakfast
0710 - go to school: walk down through the college, walk through the flyover, wait for the bus, hop on bus for two stops, walk through apartments, and finally, arrive at school.
0730 - morning assembly: listen to announcement, singapore's national anthem and pledge, christian hymn, morning prayer.
0750 - lessons start -.-
around 1310-1430 - lessons end
1400 - english tuition till 4pm (monday)
1500 - Red Cross (sigh -.-) till 6pm or later (tuesday)
1500 - Higher malay lessons till 5pm (wednesday-friday)
1700-1800 or later - arrive at hostel, shower, (if there is time, a short nap), dinner
1900 - settling down: continue the nap, tidying things up, blablabla.
2000-2200 - prep time: it means four words, study& do your homework(sssss).
2200 - hostel comm meeting, or if there is no meeting, then you can relax a bit.
2300 - lights out. darky darky. brush teeth, wash feet, pee.
2330/2400 - good night world.


This thing repeats on the all weekdays. Now you have something in your mind right, about how monotone my life is. maybe you'll ask, what about weekends?

these recent weekends, my "lovely" CCA (co-curricular activity), red cross, have been invading my life. we've got trainings and trainings and tests and blabla on saturday, from morning till noon. if I'm lucky, there are no more disturbance for my weekend.


For now, my only wishes are:

*more sleep
*less red cross
*my family
*my friends
and most of all: home :(.

:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(. My life was a LOT better with them, the people I really-really-really HATE.



I hate them for making me very eager and looking forward to go out with them, spending not only few hours, but the whole day.

I hate them for not wanting to go back to this friggin place after that.






 I hate them for addicting me to go out with them every time I'm back home. We'll go out, anywhere is okay. We'll talk talk talk, take pics take pics take pics. HAHA.

 




I hate them for making me miss junior high school so bad.








I hate them because they make me laugh every time I remembered those silly things we did together.










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I hate them for there are too many photos to upload every time I went out with them.






But what I hate the most is that because I REALLY LOVE THEM SO MUCH! I have to spare some spaces in my heart for them! :*:*

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Well, if you're wondering what on earth is that, They're supposed to be read D-E-L-A. Hahahaha. from left to right: claudia (audi), elizabeth (eliz), ME, and claudy :).
 
 

Hi, fellas! Well, you're probably wondering what the hell does the title mean. Kinda lame, I know, but those five things are the five main things I do every single day. Yes, only those things, no more.

Err, plus browsing, perhaps, but I just got my laptop, and I don't think browsing is gonna be a regular thing for me, thanks to those damn schoolwork(s).


So what do you all think? I cant say that my life is AWE-some, neither I can say that my life super duper sucks. (saying that it sucks would just make it sucks deeper, trust me.)


That's what I'm trying to do right now, convincing myself that my life is good - well at least it MUST be good so that it's worth to be lived, and I'm currently trying to encourage myself to be a tough girl, a very patient, thoughtful, and cheerful one, instead of being moody and stressed whenever I got super exhausted due to (AGAIN), those damn schoolwork(s).


However, my dear fellows, so far it has been MEGA difficult. yes, my friend, MEGA. If I can exaggerate more, it's ULTRA DIFFICULT. (I wonder which is bigger, mega or ultra?).
I've been biting my lips every time my mood drops and I'd like to shout to some annoying people, and it freaks me out sometimes.

Moreover, I also need to consider my friends' moods. I live a similar life here with them, so sometimes, when I got bad mood, they have bad mood, too. Well, when two or more people with super bad mood gather together, you can see some shits flying around.


For the past months, I've been such a "sekia" (meaning, a little child; childish person) by crying my mood out, texting my mum, saying that I want to go home, I'm sick of my life, and those sorts of things. I had been very selfish too, by asking both my mum and dad to come here, and leave my two sisters back home.

But then I realise that I can't do that forever.


I need to grow up.


At least, I need to act like a sixteen year old girl who has decided to accept this thing, and live in singapore.
I cant regret everything I have done.
I cant cry all night for those regrets, which would result in huge eyebags and stuck nose on the next day.
I cant blame my friends for what I got wrong.
I need to consider their mood.
I cant text my mum by capslock words and ask her to come here just because I got bad mood.


I need to live my life on my own. I cant depend on my mum and my dad forever, and neither I can depend on my friends.


The only one whom I should have leaned on is JESUS alone. Sheesh. Living alone makes you realise that you need to build up a stronger faith, you know.



Sigh. I need to try a bit more. good luck for me, I guess :).

okay sorry to disappoint you, but I'm writing in my mother tounge for this post.


SAYA KANGEN INDOOOOOOOOO.

Nggak pernah kebayang sebelumnya kalau gue bisa sekangen ini sama indo. keluarga, kamar tidur, rumahnya, makanannya, tempat-tempat ngecengnya, barang-barang murahnya, BALInya, temen-temen, sekolah, bahkan (percaya ato nggak) gue juga kangen upacara bendera sambil nyanyiin Indonesia Raya!

ternyata setiap hari harus berdiri diem dan pasang muka serius sambil dengerin temen-temen singaporean gue nyanyi "majulah singapura" dan nyebutin pledge mereka, aaargh timbul satu perasaan dimana gue pengen teriak, literally teriak, Pancasila, dan nyanyiin lagu Indonesia Raya! dan gue terus berpikir kalo bendera singapore yang merah-putih plus bulan sabit dan bintang itu adalah bendera INDONESIA, tapi bernoda putih bentuk bulan sabit dan bintang.

oke maafkan atas kelancangan gue, tapi itu hanya apa yang ada di pikiran gue, so no offense.


OH MY GOD, Indo itu sangat ngangenin! gue harus mengakui bahwa mata dan kuping gue selalu "jelalatan" nyari-nyari muka orang indo, dan suara orang yang ngomong bahasa indonesia. kalau ketemu, gue ga akan nyapa sih, tapi gue bakal cengar-cengir bahagia dan sumringah sepanjang hari itu.


Bahkan, gue ngebela-belain ke gereja Cathedral of Good Shepherd yang (lumayan) jauh dari hostel gue, dan gereja itu kondisinya nggak bisa dibilang bagus kaya gereja-gereja lainnya yang ada disini, tapi gue ketagihan dateng misa disana simply because...


banyak banget orang indo disana. dari turis, sampe sesama scholars yang katolik, mereka semua gereja disana. dan orang indo itu gampang banget dikenalin lewat suaranya yang (ehem) agak TOA-- alias keras, maka itu gampang lah gue sadar kalau orang yang duduk di depan gue itu orang indo, atau yg dibelakang gue , yg lagi grasak-grusuk itu pasti orang indo. Tapi gue nggak kesel atau pun bete sama sekali kok. justru kebalikannya, I feel just like home.


and until now, I'm craving for anything "Indonesian". jadi kalo ada dari kalian yang ada usul-saran tempat yang "Indo banget" di singapore, please please kasih tau gue okaayyy.

Cheers! Salam INDO! ;D

[it's 16th FEBRUARY 2010, 2:06 PM]

Hi, there! again, millions of sorries from me, for being such an unproductive blogger. and what makes me even more unproductive is that my posts are ordinary. so sorry, I'm still in process of learning.


So as you know, I'm now living my life in Singapore. It's quite different and contrast with my life back in my hometown, lovely Indonesia. Perhaps you're wondering whether it is a good life, for a smart scholar like me. However, I must say that you get it wrong.


Firstly, I'm not that smart. Well, maybe I'm smart, but there are still people who are more ingenious, and far smarter than me. In fact, I'm a quite lazy student here, compared with my dear friends. Yes, homework sucks for me, just like it does for you guys.


Secondly, my life here is just as ordinary as yours. It is even more tiring. I need to wake up early, get ready, and walk my way to school. No cars, no taxis. I take bus, but most of the journey is on foot. So, bus is not counted. Next, PE lesson. Well, I'm never good at this subject. I can survive the joggings, the sports, and the push-ups, sit-ups, jumping-jacks, but still, I would prefer not doing PE.


The life at hostel is good, though. The food's nice, the aunties are kind and caring, the friends are supportive and fun. but there are chores you have to do yourself, and they are extremely tiring. The positive thing is that after doing those chore, you appreciate your "mbak" even more. you miss them, you wish they were here helping you doing those chores.


The best thing about living here is the weekends and the holidays. You can explore singapore, go to any place you like. The transport is easy, and the safety's good for traveling alone. You can shop till you drop, you can hang out in the cafes, you can go to the zoo (it's so COOL!), have a city tour, anything! You just need to remember the curfew at your hostel ;)



Ehem, I think this is enough for now. And for you guys who wants to go here for your study, I'm not discouraging you to come. I'm telling you what to prepare, what you'll face here. You'll be more independent, trust me. You'll appreciate life even more, believe me.


So please, do go. Do try the test. Do accept the scholarship. Do come to singapore. Don't make this post as a thing that discourages you.


OKAY? :D


P.S.: the local friends are very FRIENDLY! they're really welcoming. You'll definitely enjoy the class! :)

THOUSANDS OF SORRY,BLOGGERS. I should have done my kaleidoscope project, but I slacked and it's failed. so very very sorry :(.


I feel ashamed when I did some blogwalks to my friends' blogs. they made some awesome postings about past memories in last year. I feel more ashamed when I saw my not-finished-and-not-complete-either draft. I have now lost my mood. SORRRYYYY :(:(:(.

by the way, this is my last year's kaleidoscope link

well, let's get to the topic. it's a new year, so HAPPY NEW YEAR, lovely bloggers! I wish y'all the happiest new year, and may your NY resolutions be accomplished :)

by the way, school starts already. it feels really really weird, wearing your uniform, getting up early, carrying heavy backpack on your back after SIX MONTHS being "SCHOOL-LESS".


The school lessons themselves are very exhausting. the teachers are simply immoral. they just give homework, homework, and more homework as if we got nothing to do after school finishes.


I was kinda sick in the last two week. I felt unwell, got stomachache, a little fever, and some headache. but thank GOD I recovered fast. there were some of my friends who got sick. it was like a relay race, when everybody takes turn to get sick. hahaha.


oops, I think I've babbled too much. see you later, bloggers. have a great 2010 :) and ooh, here are some pics!