"ANTEVASIN" - In betweener

HEY! it's been awhile since the last time I posted. well, the title - ANTEVASIN, if youre wondering, means "in betweener", or literally: one who lives in the border in sanskrit.

I got this word from a book, EAT PRAY LOVE. A nice book, though it's a bit tedious in some parts.
So let me explain something about the word, which I took from the book.

An antevasin lives in sight of both worlds, and he/she looks towards the unknown part. According to the literal translation, he/she is a scholar, not a villager, but not the one living deep in the unexplored woods either.

As in the modern world, it means living on the line between your old thinking and your new understanding, and always in state of learning.
As he/she advances forward in his/her studies and realisations, the border is always moving.

Well, I think this word describes me in some ways. Not really about the fact that I'm a scholar, but more that the in-betweener thingy.

I've spent so much time during my leisure times wondering what I'm supposed to be, what I wanna be, and what things I'm good at, but...

I'm not any of those people who are super talented, nor am I an indifferent idiot.
I'm not the kind of ingenious artist, nor am I a person with no sense of art.
I'm not a prodigious musician, nor am I a person with no music understanding.
I'm not an extrovert who is able to adapt everywhere, nor am I an introvert who can't socialise.
I'm not the type of person who takes things very seriously, nor am I a type of person who is super laid back.
I'm not a person who is extremely devoted to GOD and a religious girl who desires to be a nun, nor am I an atheist that have no faith in any gods.


"I'm just a slippery antevasin, betwixt and between, a student on the ever-shifting border near the wonderful, scary forest of the new." - Elizabeth Gilbert.


I know it's a bit too late, but nevermind, I'm just posting for fun ;D
Anyway, these photos were taken from http://fuckyeahworldcup.tumblr.com/ -- if you're super curious and can't get enough of the worldcup fever, go visit the website! it's duper awesome.

Me myself? I support HOLLAND, from 2006! Well, cant wait till brazil 2014! :D:D:D

Well, enjoy these photos!




From TOP: Kuyt, Sneijder, Huntelaar, Robben, Van Persie :)
Left to Right: Pique, Puyol, Villa, Xavi

Enough for now! See you in 2014 ;);).


Hi, this is me. I'm... exhausted. stressed. Yes, it's unavoidable. Everybody I know is kinda stressed here. Wanna know some reasons why? Here, let me introduce you the timetable of my days.

0545 - alarm rings
0600 - shower time
0610 - a short nap
0630 - wakey wakey.
0645 - breakfast
0710 - go to school: walk down through the college, walk through the flyover, wait for the bus, hop on bus for two stops, walk through apartments, and finally, arrive at school.
0730 - morning assembly: listen to announcement, singapore's national anthem and pledge, christian hymn, morning prayer.
0750 - lessons start -.-
around 1310-1430 - lessons end
1400 - english tuition till 4pm (monday)
1500 - Red Cross (sigh -.-) till 6pm or later (tuesday)
1500 - Higher malay lessons till 5pm (wednesday-friday)
1700-1800 or later - arrive at hostel, shower, (if there is time, a short nap), dinner
1900 - settling down: continue the nap, tidying things up, blablabla.
2000-2200 - prep time: it means four words, study& do your homework(sssss).
2200 - hostel comm meeting, or if there is no meeting, then you can relax a bit.
2300 - lights out. darky darky. brush teeth, wash feet, pee.
2330/2400 - good night world.

This thing repeats on the all weekdays. Now you have something in your mind right, about how monotone my life is. maybe you'll ask, what about weekends?

these recent weekends, my "lovely" CCA (co-curricular activity), red cross, have been invading my life. we've got trainings and trainings and tests and blabla on saturday, from morning till noon. if I'm lucky, there are no more disturbance for my weekend.

For now, my only wishes are:

*more sleep
*less red cross
*my family
*my friends
and most of all: home :(.